For one who has to be in control, this put me into a spin. The way I began to gain control was knowing that I could only control myself in any circumstance and deciding what could I do to put me back in the driver’s seat.
I decided that a purge of any remnants left from any past relationships would be in order. I have been journaling for decades and whenever things got bad, I would write. I had written journals from when I was married, through my dating years following my husband’s death.
I felt that I needed to learn from my mistakes and possible wrongdoings in past relationships in order to come through this emotional upheaval I was feeling in the present. I reread all my past journals, learned what I needed to and then…burned every last bit of them.
I felt cleansed of the past. But now what? As if my questions were heard, I chanced upon “The Invitation,” by Oriah. This was where I was right now in the present: in my life as a single person, passionate about life and love and wanting that special person in my life. But I knew I had to be alone, with myself, and accept myself: I had to be comfortable with myself first.
In the last line in her prose poem, Oriah states: “I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.”
When I don’t journal, I know life is going pretty well.
Life is good right now!
— Diana D., Los Angeles, Ca.